You caused me pain, but in my dreams

 

My heart has been stabbed repeatedly
By memories created by the night.
Your voice echoes in my head
As you gently and evasively end things with me
I watch them drive you away
Powerless and confused
All the while the pain increases
...

Trying to get a grip on myself
I pay attention to the outside world
As I turn to treats and jewelry
Praying this mask this reality that you’ve hit me with
Tell each other everything
Wasn’t that our promise?
Working it out together always
That was the promise
....

I text you asking for bluntness
And that I received
The words typed and sent
Now burned my eyes and seared my heart
Praying this is some alternate universe
I desperately want to vibe out
Away from you and this pain
The shock and confusion
One I cannot understand
One I never believed to be possible
....

This isn’t the forever we envisioned
This isn’t the future we built
The pain mutes me and pulls me awake
And even though I know it was all a dream
The pain still leaves me crying
Hating what I just saw and refusing it to be a sign
For my world has been shattered by this dream
Yet I knew the damage would be worse
If it were true